Well - news flash, I'm actually about ten years old and still trying to figure out who I am and who I want to be, and can I please get off this crazy merry-go-round before I wake up at 55 and wonder where my life went!
So what's missing? My family would tell me having a baby or three is just what I (they) need. But although kids may bring some sort of long-term fulfillment, I'm pretty sure throwing a baby in my life now would only make the merry-go-round spin faster.
Maybe the answer to my life's purpose isn't some monumental one-time act that will make me feel like my life is worth something. Maybe this is the answer...
Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the Author and Finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. [Hebrews12]
That's all I have figured out so far. That my life's purpose right now is to get up and fight every day - fight the sin that traps me, fight for joy from the only source that will satisfy, and fight for endurance to do it all again tomorrow.
Even after almost 5 years of marriage, 1 child and a big relocation, we still don't have our lives figured out! I think the whole point is that you are doing exactly what you've just done. Admitted that you don't know it all, that your ways are not His ways and that you are willing to be faithful day in and day out to what He has called you to do...everyday. It may not seem glorious or what you pictured, but until God gives you a burning desire for something else (not your marriage partner...lol obviously) then this is where you are. I love you Sarah girl!
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